75 Pounds Down, But What I Really Lost Was Food Noise, Brain Fog, and ADHD Chaos
(How the Switch to Retatrutide Lifted My Brain Fog, Calmed My ADHD, and Rewired My Mind—Far Beyond Just Weight Loss)
What if the weight loss was just the beginning? When I embarked on my GLP-1 voyage, I had ONE important goal: to live. I was 240 pounds, post-heart attack, pre-diabetic, fatty liver disease, and out of options. I chose ME. I chose compounded Tirzepitide. What a journey! At first, the changes were incredible.
✅ I lost 75 pounds, at an average of 1.1 pounds per week.
✅ My inflammation plummeted after about a month.
✅ I got off ALL of my heart medications, within 6-8 months of treatment.
But at some point, the weight loss stopped being the biggest transformation. Because something else was happening.
💡 Food noise disappeared, but so did my ability to focus.
💡 Cravings were gone, but so was my short-term memory.
💡 I had finally quieted the chaos in my body… but my brain was another story.
I was flooding my house washing dishes. I was mid-sentence, losing words. I was walking into rooms and forgetting why. In other news, I was losing motivation and enjoyment of everything. I felt content to be on the couch, no real inspiration to do anything, go anywhere or engage with humanity. VERY UNRuthie-like. It’s called “anhedonia” and showed up after about 9 months on Tirzepitide. I made Tik Toks about it and how strange it felt, to not want anything, not food, not company, just nothing. I was content, just wanted nothing.
And the worst part? I was starting to wonder if this was just what getting older felt like.
Spoiler alert: It wasn’t. This wasn’t about aging. This was ADHD, fully unmasked, and completely out of control.
Phase One: Tirzepatide & The ADHD Awakening
When I started Tirzepatide (aka Mounjaro/Zepbound) in September 2023, it was like breaking free from chains I didn’t even know I had.
✅ Day 11: I experienced satiety for the first time in my life.
✅ Food noise disappeared overnight.
✅ I finally understood—my obesity had never been about willpower.
But that wasn’t the only thing I learned. I had been self-medicating my ADHD with food my entire life. Without the constant dopamine chase, my brain came undone.
For reference sake, I am unmedicated combined type ADHD. No meds since I have lived in Puerto Rico, 5 years now. Diagnosed (more than once) and first in 1974. Back to your regularly scheduled blog post…
🚩 I lost all sense of time.
🚩 Executive dysfunction took over.
🚩 I was functioning at about 60% of my normal cognitive capacity. That may be generous…
I was better in so many ways, but I was also struggling and desperately searching for brain help. Was it better to be physically healthier… if I could no longer trust my own brain? NO I would not accept that as a pivot. Both must be possible and I was determined to use what I had left of my mind to figure out a solution. Sound therapy, journaling, headphones (game changer), breath work…etc etc.
🔥 Phase Two: The Retatrutide Expedition (Goodbye, Brain Fog)
By November 2024, I had been on Tirzepatide for 14 months.
✅ I was within 10-20 pounds of my goal weight.
✅ My body was healthier than ever.
✅ I was off all of my heart medications.
But I also felt like I was slowly losing myself. A classic ADHD hyper-researcher, I had been seeing reports from patients enrolled in the Retatrutide clinical trials.
And what they were saying? It blew my mind.
💡 “This is better than stimulants.”
💡 “I feel like my brain is finally working.”
💡 “The clarity and ability to focus at will is just… shocking.”
I was intrigued. I was also scared.
🚩 Retatrutide wasn’t FDA-approved yet.
🚩 There were concerns about heart rate increases.
🚩 I knew this was a risk. But I also knew:
✅ I didn’t have years to wait for ‘official’ approval.
✅ I wasn’t willing to backslide into metabolic dysfunction.
✅ I was worth taking care of—on my own terms.
So I found a reputable enough source, got it independently tested, and began an extremely slow titration schedule. And, literally within hours of my first microdose…
💡 The fog lifted.
💡 I could think clearly for the first time in over a year.
💡 I realized just how much of my life I had been living through mental murk.
This was the missing piece.
🚀 The Crossroads: FDA Approval, Risk, and Taking My Health Into My Own Hands
I wasn’t willing to backslide on my progress—not after everything I had fought for. Here’s the thing: Retatrutide is still not FDA-approved.
For some people, that would be a hard stop. But for me? I’ve spent years navigating real, high-stakes medical decisions. I’ve flushed central lines at home. I’ve managed TPN nutrition through IVs. I’ve sterilized Hickman lines and PICC lines.
So when people gasp at the idea of mixing sterile water into a vial and injecting it like it’s some terrifying feat…. sorry, but I think you are kinda cute. Puhhlease.
You know what’s actually terrifying?
Living with untreated metabolic disease. I never knew, until I knew, that living while fat was incredibly dangerous. Maybe not for everyone. But I was already recovering from cardiovascular disease, pre diabetes, non alcoholic fatty liver disease and recent bouts of sleep apnea. So, yeah. No thank you. I am not interested in dying from obesity-related complications. Not after I understand the power of GLP1 in a body like mine.
I’m 58 years old. I don’t have 2, 3, 4, or 5 years to wait while a boardroom decides whether a medication is worthy of a stamp.
🔥 I stopped waiting for permission to take care of myself. 🔥
What About You? Because that’s what it comes down to, right? Whether you are stuck from lack of access to meds or fear of side effects or whatever…. How many of us have spent years waiting?
⏳ Waiting for a doctor to take us seriously.
⏳ Waiting for the “right time” to focus on our health.
⏳ Waiting for someone else to tell us it’s okay to fight for ourselves. Bah humbug.
🚨 But here’s the thing: Nobody is coming to save you. 🚨
At some point, you either take the wheel of your own life—or you let someone else’s timeline decide how your story plays out.
I chose me.
I chose my health.
I chose to stop waiting for permission to take care of myself.
🔥 Because this is your life. And you don’t need permission to fight for it. 🔥
🌊 Quick Disclaimer (Because I’m a Mermaid, Not a Doctor) 🧜♀️
In case you haven’t figured it out yet…⚓ I’m a mermaid, not a doctor. 🌊 This is my own personal lived experience, my own research, and my own choices. 🐠 Take it with a grain of sea salt, and always do your own due diligence.
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